Life is but a dream. Just a very short 33 years ago today, my Father passed on. At the time, he was only 53 years young. My brothers and I were young adults, my Mother, a very young widow. The world stopped, our lives were changed forever. We tried to live life, but he being our rock and Fearless leader, and now gone, took us to a place we could not imagine.
The next decade was one of acceptance, growth and learning lessons. We were bonded by the tragedy, bonded by our sorrow and grief. But shouldn’t our life be about living again, in honor of what we learned by his place on earth. We needed to pull from our memories, repeat the many stories he told in great detail, and laugh as much as we could when we celebrated birthdays, holidays, while always feeling his absence.
I speak for myself, when I can now say, he is with me every day. I have tried hard to become a good and generous person. He taught me so many lessons as a child. To work hard, pay back debt, be responsible for myself & my actions. And to love deeply. I feel I have taken on many of his traits and try to fine tune my skills whenever possible. One thing is for sure, we all inherited his gift of Gab..storytelling!
My biggest regret is that he did not get to see me & my brothers as we grew up, and have become adults he would be proud of. Especially his grandchildren, Alex & Max and Elizabeth, her children, Shelby & Woods. I adore them all and continue to keep him alive in our many tales about Pop Pop.
Today is special, it’s a day we all celebrate in our minds and in our hearts. He did leave too soon, but we all treasure the moments, live life at our fullest, live as if it was our last day. Take risks, reach for the stars and you may become one. Tell someone you love them, mean it! Thank God for each day, count your blessings and remember there is always someone feeling the same pain and grief you have felt. Share as much knowledge as you can, and most of all be grateful.
I now live in the home he built with his own hands. It sits high on a hill, solid and strong, just like Dad. I watch the beautiful sunsets daily with Mom. My unbelievable husband & I are now caring for My mother, the circle is complete. My father sent him to me, to change my world, make me believe in true love again, and I thank you, Daddy everyday for your inspiration and immense Love.
I adore you and thank you for being by my side, even now,
Love, your little girl, Joyce